Have You Ever?

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Notes: Lyrics are from Have You Ever by Brandy.

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Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?

Why did his eyes sting?

Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?

When had his sleep of escape become torture?

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

When had he ever stumbled over words?

Have you ever?

Of course I haven't ...

Have you ever?

But ... lina ...

Have you ever been in love, been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand

He wished she would understand, understand how he felt about her, how he needed this cure so he could try to court her. So he would be worthy of her.

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same

Her fire had caught his heart and melted away the icy stone ... but the flames didn't blaze for him. He knew that Lina was closer to Gourry than himself. He knew that Xellos had a better chance at winning her heart. But he would give anything, anything ... even his cure ... if she only loved him back.

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say and you don't know where to start

If only he could tell her. If only he knew a phrase, a sentence, a song to explain what he felt, what he had found in her. But the words escaped as quickly as they were thought, fading away even as he opened his mouth to speak.

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?

When had she last shed tears?

Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?

When had dreams and sleep ever escaped her?

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

When had mind and mouth lost their quickness?

Have you ever?

Of course I haven't ...

Have you ever?

But ... zel ...

Have you ever found the one you dreamed of all your life
Do just about anything to look into their eyes

She had found him. By accident or chance, by luck or the Hand of Fate, she'd found him. Her enemy had become her friend ... but he had never noticed her, so blindly searching for the cure to fulfill his dreams, that he never noticed the look in her eyes.

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Zel's heart belonged only to his cure. The ice that shrouded every touch of his presence was pervasive, cooling her temper, but warming her heart. Why didn't he see? He didn't need to be normal, he was everything to her.

Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

She hoped. Hoped desperately that he would care about her. Maybe after he was cured, after he was human, he would reach out. Then perhaps she could finally hold his hand and hide in his embrace.

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?

When had the loneliness hurt so much? When he had finally found a way to ease it ... but couldn't.

Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?

When had his heart kept him awake? When he dreamed of twining flaming hair around his fingers and looking into gem stone eyes.

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

When had his voice failed him? When he looked at her and all he could remember was a single song ...

Have you ever?

Always and forever ...

Have you ever?

Lina ....

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?

When had she cried out her heart every night like this? When she had met him and knew he would never see her.

Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?

When had her dreams haunted her? When he was always in them, holding her ...

Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?

When had her quick wit and fast tongue deserted her? When she had come up against someone who matched her wit for wit, comment for comment, and blue eyes had held hers ...

Have you ever?

Always and forever ...

Have you ever?

Zel ...

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