A Price Too High


        Never bend
        Never bow
        Never break

        Remember tribe
        Remember race
        Remember self

Never let him see
        a single thing
Never let him hear
        a single word
other than that one name that he cannot abide.
Never to gaze on him without a sneer,
Now That is the price of Pride.

        Never gaze
        Never hold
        Never kiss

        Remember duty
        Remember heritage
        Remember self

Never let him say
        a single thing
that might ever possibly break my hate
Never let him know
        a single ounce
of just how much I hold him dear.
Never to touch him without intent of pain,
Now That is the price of Honor.

        Never love
        Never feel
        Never hurt

        Remember tribe
        Remember duty
        Remember world

Never make
        one. single. move.
to compromise,
Never to hold out
        one. single. hand.
to show how much I care,
To Never doubt how everyone would stare,
Now That is the price of Safety

To just:
        bend
                bow
                        break
        gaze
                hold
                        kiss
        love
                feel
                        hurt
To say one word, or not say one name;
        But would that make any difference?

To forget:
        my tribe
                my race
                        my self
        my duty
                my heritage
                        my pride
        my tribe
                my duty
                        my world
To forget all the eyes and to take up the hand
        of the one I so deeply -
                        ...so deeply -
                        ...to say that I -
        ...say to the whole wide world that I - ...

To forgo:
        Pride
                Honor
                        Safety
        My Pride
                My Honor
                        My Safety
        All Pride
                All Honor
                        All Safety
To forgo my heart and hand it to him
        dressed and bound on a silver platter,
        for him to either keep
        or shatter like fine, crystal, glass.
Now That is the price of Love.

...all Safety...
...all Honor...
...all Pride...

Because That is the Price
        to drown in molten amethyst.
To drown...
I would give up all...
But will it make a difference?
Will it ever, even, make a difference
to him?


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